Currently Listening Ever the Same By Rob Thomas Ever The Same see related

Holy crap im back!!!

lol, so hows everyone???

lets see...

an overview of whats been going on in my life since i been gone...

1. confusion at school w/ people (lol, nuthn new)

2. my sister liking a guy 4 years older then her, which is illegal by the way and yet since that every thing has been my fault thats gone through this house...sux

3. screw these numbers, gonna go back to paragraphs.

Ok well to put it to you straight, my mind has been somewhere else since i don't know when. as of lately i've been spacing out so much that i don't even know what my friends are telling me half the time. mostly cuz i'm thinking about home. It's just gotten to the point that i don't want to come home anymore cuz i'm sick of being the one that gets in trouble all the time and stuff. My mom has just been in this phase where everything is my fault i guess. one minute she'll yell at me then the next she'll act as if everything is fine. I hate being home cuz of it, i went to youth tonight and everyone was praying, i didnt really want to go but my friend made me cuz she wanted to and i dunno why but i was thinkn bout what my mom told me a couple of days ago and i just started crying. thank god the room was dark. (i've been missing this xanga thing. get to rant all my feelings and get them out instead of keeping them in and driving myself insane. just hope no one actually reads this. lol) but anyway back to what i was saying. apparently i'm a monster child who was allowed to much freedom, btw the only freedom i have is going to the mall and thats it and i should have never been allowed to have friends. I must be a terrible kid cuz thats the way she makes me feel and my mom even puts me down every time i do sumthn. i just dont understand anymore and i'm startn to just give up on trying to understand. i just cant wait till i'm outta here now. i never thought my mom could be this way. i guess i'm not used to it. i know alot of ppl have it worse and that i'm probably just complaining alot (which is why i hope no one reads this) but i'm just not used to it so it helps to be able to let all of it out on here so sorry if i sound like some childish baby. w/e. i just can't talk about this stuff to anyone in person cuz i'm a very closed type person. when it comes to speaking to someone in person that is. lol. but ya...i gonna shut up cuz my mom making me get off.

well check ya later i guess.

Bye for now!

sorry bout the whinning.